Bond or No Bond

The boss bought up the topic about sending me for coz and bond me just now again..

We spoke about it the other time..was tempted..but still not sure if its a good idea..

Weighted the pro and cons but still cant make a decision..thats me..indecisive..

another 25days to my confirmation..am very confident abt getting the confirmation..hoping for an increment..pray hard that I get it..

Haix..how how how..cant reach a decision..anyone? any suggestion?

On a side note..I did eat today..hope the wanna puke feeling will go off soon..if not..pls stay till I reach the weight I wan..hee..

Weird

I think I is weird..

I din eat anything the whole day yesterday cos I feel like puking when I smell or see food..

This morning..I had 2 mouth of my breakfast and couldnt eat anymore..

But I ate quite alot of lunch..surprisingly..like normal..I even had chocolates after lunch..1 packet of chocolates..

Now..I see food..I got the wanna puke feeling again..

My gastric is screwed..maybe can lose abit of weight cos of this..hmmz..

Worm

Am feeling like a worm..

Haben eaten anything since 7pm last nite..no appetite at all..see food wanna vomit.. *gRoss*

Had fever this morning..but it sorta went away..

So cold can...brrrrr....

Feeling lethargy..dun feel like doing anything..as if I am dying..

All I do is sleep and be grumpy..

I dun wanna be sick..not when there is no1 ard to let be sa jiao..

Yes..I am like a kid..so what..sue me..

Shld go back to my bed...get ready for work tmr..

Super sianz..

Me..Myself & I

I am me..myself & I

One that is always doing the wrong things...nv getting it right..

One that should go be a beta person..

One that got so many things to learn..to improve..

One that need to learn to be myself..

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Haven sleep the whole night..

Swollen eyes..busy mind..running nose..

Anyone care? No..

Upset

I am not feeling good abt what happened..

Maybe I am reading too much into the matter..but it still make me feel kinda being betrayed..silly..i know..

sick and tired..hate my life..

Not that anyone care about how I feel..but still...I am upset abt it..

*Beta off dead*

Photos

As promised:

My cousin - Jeray..cute hor? got attitute problem k..he only let certain ppl carry him..

Baby Clayden..Ah fat's baby bro..just turn 1 mth..

Lastly...My fav..forever so adorable..so greedy..so sweet..I wanna pinch her chubby cheeks..

Gd News

Everyone got gd news to share..

What about me? When can I be happy again?

Would you even turn and look at me again?

Haix

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这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
能挽回什么你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错

在夜深人静的时候..眼泪落下
当你说走就走
我知道你其实很难受
就算被冷落也不是你的错
最近我无法呼吸
连自己的影子都想找你
我总想起你的声音在我耳边
就算是轻轻的呼吸心还是感觉痛
没有你的日子里我变得好脆弱
双手还戒不掉拥抱你那份冲动
脑海里怎么拼都是你的脸孔
甜蜜的回忆一直浮现在我心里
快乐悲伤被你左右
孤独的缺口..没你填补就不能活
我怀念我们无话不说..一起作梦
怀念争吵以后还想要爱你的冲动
我就算忘记时间也忘记你..也忘不了我们有过的甜蜜

另一个我在看着我
她问我值不值得..为你付出所有
只要一想起你的温柔..就会让我看不清楚
只要有你陪着我..再苦我能承受

另一个你在看着我
他问我愿不愿意..给你更多信任
只要一想起你的忧愁..我什么都愿意

你永远是我的最爱
不管爱你有多难..我的心只想属于你
在我心中..我不会停止爱着你

不知何时又才能见面
我不想让你哭..我也不想认输
只想用我的爱再次把你留住
你愿不愿意一辈子让我来陪
分担忧愁..消除你的疲惫
你愿不愿意一辈子和我想随
虽然我不敢保证..做到最完美

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

只是不想到此结束
不如就把我当成是一个替补
每天陪你散散步..也算是小小的幸福
有一天我总会看见幸福的彩虹
相信你给的承诺..我等候

我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情

虽然不在你身边
但我在你心里面
我愿意等着你

Do you still remember ur promise to let me be the 1st in ur ride??

MC

Am on MC today..

Been sick for few days actually..but woke up today with high fever and I have been coughing the whole night...so decide to go see doctor..

Doctor say I never get enuff rest..work too stress (ok wad..tahan-able) and my blood pressure shoot up to 139.. -_-`

Gave me medicine..muz make sure I remember to take them..keke..

Aside for being sick..went out last nite after work..

Great chat during the long bus journey down orchard..nw I noe more stuff..=P

Walk ard Cineleisure..din get anything but some1 got a cute small water bottle from Nike..shld buy the pink 1 mah..tat is more cute.. =P

Walked over to Paragon to look at crumpler..limited edition of a purple colour bag caught my eyes...keke..some1 fail to tempt me to buy..I shall consider..wait till i get my pay.. =P

Dinner at this Italian place at Taka as recommended by some1..not bad..quite nice...tks for dinner and the sharing of gossips.. =P

Movie at Cine after that..nice show..quite funny for some parts..I agreed that it would be even beta if the good guy nv die..btw..we both agreed that this is 1 show where the bad guy is better looking than the gd guys..so charming can.. =P

Some1 is flying to Krabi for holiday today... *envy* I also wan holiday!!!

Feeling drowsy after taking medicine..the coughing and sniffing still nv stop..argh..I hate being sick..

Mr KK

Happy Birthday to our dear Kenny Koo aka KK!!

Hope you enjoy your special day with ur special some1, Chris..

May all ur wishes come true!!

Uncle planning gathering already...but judging his pattern and speed...maybe we will cfm the date to meet 100yrs later..den decide where to go for the next 100yrs..so..we will meet 200yrs later k.. =P

Weakling

I duno why..but I have been falling sick pretty often since like a month ago??

Flu and fever comes and go..as often as the num of time I go shopping..meaning alot of times lah..

Keep coughing also and I am always feeling lethagic and tired..

I seriously wonder what is wrong with my immune system..

I have been sneezing non-stop since the bus journey home and it dun seems to wanna stop..feeling damn cold also..

Come on..buck up..nobody is going to care of you if you fall sick!!

God Is Fair

I believe in Karma..apparently, some ppl is getting the retribution already..bet YOU did not expect all this to happen rite..must be thinking wadever YOU did was all correct and righteous..now YOU know the pain..

God is watching..God is fair after all..

I use to be the 1st to know everything about you..well..its seems that its no longer the case...

Oh Shit

Haz got a mini accident and is on 2days of MC..maybe more since she cant walk..

I can see the word bz waving to me...with shirley and her not in the com..it means I gotta do everything myself? no sharing of workload..bRrrrr..I no want..

Today is baby Clayden's full month..hee..Bennie Boy was here...Ah fat was here...Jeray was here..so many many babies..I is happy but tired..

Photos to be up soon..when I aint lazy..

Videos

Some1 very free in ofc..keep showing me videos..



Poor Bugger..



A local 1..pls dun do tis to the uncle or auntie in kopitiam k..kenna whacked for sure..



Haz contributed this..still scold me for watching video in ofc..Pot Calling Kettle BLACK!! =x

Feeling Good

It was a fairly short day today as I was out for mtg for close to 3.5hrs..went off extra early so that we can have dinner b4 catching the show..

It was a nice dinner at Dome..the chat over dinner was good.. =)

It was a great movie..the company was greater..and not to forget...tks for lending me the jacket when I was cold.. =)

More of this kinda night out pls..help to relax.. =)

Tired

It have been tiring this 2 days..Everything is for my very 1st Press Conference in the new company..

Reached home only at 10.30pm after printing all the stuff for the media kits..stupid printers taking forever and it doesnt help when all of us were like super hungry..had to take biscuits from the client's pantry..than proceed to NLB for the full dress rehearsal for today's event..

Woke up at 6.30 to go to client's ofc to finish packing the remaining media kits and proceed to venue for event..some media stood us up..but overall..everything was ok except my shoes broke..almost...not totally..lucky it did not fail me..tahan till press conference over..walked over to bugis and buy new shoes and had lunch..

totally shagged out..reached ofc stoned..mind totally blank..forced myself to do work and go for brain stoming session for new biz somemore..worked till 8pm den we left the ofc..had to drag myself go take bus hm..I is super tired can..Boss still on msn..asking this..asking that..bth..

Got papercut when packing all the media kits..den the penknife still wanna bully me..kena cut again..looks quite deep..dun dare peel off the handyplast to see.. *sCary*

Very Funny!!

"Some1" showed me this video..Trying hard not to laugh out loud in the office..super evil..Enjoy..

Can Die..Cannot Sick

This week is going to be a super duper bz week for me..

Mon - Preparation for Media Briefing
Tue - Media Briefing
Wed - Meeting
Thurs - Crafting of Press Release
Fri - Release of Press Release

The above does not include other big and small matters to attend to..with 1 colleague on leave..1 not very on frequency and a paranoid boss..this week..can die but cant fall sick..and the worst thing? I am falling sick!! My joint are aching..ppl have been commenting that my face is as black or rather blacker than charcoal..which i tot is always the case..hmmz..

muz wait till wkend den can allow myself to fall sick..but..I need to go for an event on sat morning..that means i can only be sick from Sat afternoon..maybe I shld say I cant die and cant fall sick..pathetic..

其实还爱你

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

只对你有感觉

无解的眼神心像海底针
光是猜测我食欲不振
有点烦人又有点迷人

浪漫没天份反应够迟钝
不够谨慎花挑错颜色
但很矛盾喜欢你的笨

微笑再美再甜不是你的..都不特别
眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰..又是晴天
靠的再近再贴少了拥抱..就算太远
全世界只对你有感觉

玩的再疯再野你瞪一眼..我就收敛
马路再宽再远只要你牵..就很安全
我会又乖又黏温柔体贴..绝不敷衍
我只对你有感觉

体贴却黏人爱哭却温顺
有时天真有时很邪恶
对你耍狠就是舍不得

请吸收养分让脑袋平衡
要你现身动作慢吞吞
怎么承认我非你不可

Ultra Super Duper Cute

Look at the way she roll her eyes!!! Wah Lau!!! Super cute loh..1st time see ppl roll eyes roll till so cute..haha..

Cannot tahan cute babies and kids..I want my ger to be as cute or cuter next time..haha..

Some1 is Suaku

Was chatting with some1 and somehow...the topic came to bdae..

He said I was the 1st person he knows that shares the same bdae..same day..same mth..same year..but to me..ntg new wad..i haf fren who shares same bdae as me since pri sch all the way to poly..some1 is such a suaku..haha.. =x

Anyway..an update on the war..I sorta back out from the war today..we went into the boss's rm..I started talking..and I told my colleague what shld be done and how we shld do it..in a very general way and she kept quiet..after I finish..the boss look at me with the "eh..there are more things that you shld say"..haha..she trying to use me to get rid of that colleague lah..cos she say she hates to ask ppl to leave..best is they leave themself..scary boss..

Well, the colleague did start to send out emails to clients and copying me on the emails..but she still take forever to do 1 small thing loh..update a simple document and she cant finish it by the end of the day..i gave her the instruction early in the morning can? Haz roll eyes...I shake head..Boss complains..she ask me what is the colleague bz with..I told her that is exactly the same question that we have been asking among ourself..she is doing only 1 acc while rest of us is like doing 4..we shld be more bz den her 100 times loh..

Was on Msn just now with the boss..she say I need to talk to her again..tis time..on her speed of doing things..damn sian..I am new to the com k..how to go tell her tis kinda thing..and I duno y the boss cant tell her..y me? I got bad guy look on my face? quite hard to open my mouth and scold ppl lah..not as if its like last time in EPR..scold intern..haha.. *evil*

Need to really talk to her again..let me monitor her for a week and write a "review" den gif the boss..ask her be the bad guy..she is supposed to wad..I hate to do this..I is stuck..

War

Going to declare war tomorrow with a colleague..haix..

Not really a war but it happen that we are working on the same account and she is really not doing her part and screw things up..I cover her ass once..I cant cover when the big events comes..most impt..I cant afford to let her or myself screw this acc..this acc is no longer jus another acc..been doing it since I start my PR career..I can only do it beta and I wanna do it beta..

Spoke to Haz..She sees same prob with the colleague and say need to tok to her or tok to the boss..spoke to my senior..senior said the same thing..spoke to erm.."some1"..he said to follow my heart and do what I think its rite..

I think I do need to speak to the boss cos the colleague din make any changes or improvement after me talking to her..so I went to the boss..the boss says that she is aware of the prob and suggest that we have a mtg tmr morning to settle it..i am going to be the bad guy loh..today..i was still joking and talking with her..tmr..i will have to declare war with her..bet she feels that I am very fake..

Some ppl may be thinking in their mind that I am one who tell tales abt my colleagues..I am fake..trying to get rid of my colleagues or whatsoever..but I know that I am not and I am doing this for the good for everyone..the boss been supportive..been encouraging me to speak up but its easy for her to say lah..I kena hated wad..haha..

Kinda guilty cos after the meeting..it may lead to her leaving the com..apparently..she haben been proving her worth in the company..but..I still feel bad..I really do not want this to happen..I am not trying to chase any1 away..but for the acc..for the com..for everyone..i need to do it..."some1" said that I maybe helping her..cos she can reflect on it and do beta den 1 day screw up and get fired..make sense..but everyone know that tis colleague of mine cant take criticism..she dun like ppl to tell her wad is right and what to do..so I am having a bad feeling abt tmr..think she is going to hate me..worst thing is she hates me and refuse to co-operate in work..den I will be in deep shit..working on so many acc nw..where got time to go ja ga her?

Why I am lidat? I always feel that i need to do something but will fight within myself whether I shld do it..den after I do it..I regret it and feel guilty it..jus what is wrong with me..haix..wish me luck for tmr..

Sinful Sat

A day of waiting..eating..spending..

The bus to get to Ikea took freaking long..I is sweaty after the wait..me no like..

The food at Ikea is super nice..I is happy while eating..me like..

The thing I bought today are not expensive..I is spending too much..me not good ger..

I knocked against a stand in the shop just now..the sharp end of the stand cause a cut on my leg..I is bleeding..2 days ago..I hit the steel stand in the bathroom cos I saw a flying xiao qiang (from duno where)..now it still hurts..I is too fat so keep knocking into things..tats why so many blue black and cut..I is clumsy..I get hurt easily..physically and emotionally..tsk tsk tsk...

Cycling is just not my cup of tea..not a sporty person to begin with anyway..so it will only be for work..teasing will stop soon then..but with the boss's practise...think it will go on for some time..Haz been tease for as long as she worked..think I will be no special.. *smack forehead*

Baking cookies later..hope it will put a smile on the ladies' face when they receive my 爱心 cookies.. =)